What do you believe about love?

Someone said to me recently, you should fall in love and this would solve your (physical) pain. And I was thinking, I am constantly in love, with several people in my daily life. When I'm not in love, I'm not well and something is missing. As inter-connected humans, isn't it normal to be constantly in love?

As Osho says somewhere, in bliss your ego extinguishes and the self has to disappear. On some days I'm trying on this mental exercise: thinking for a day that I am not me, so that all the good and bad that happens that day is happening to another person, not me. I forget all the past and if it crosses my mind it is not my experience, not my mind, not my bliss, not my pain. It makes me feel very light and gives me energy. It's like giving blood and renewing your blood pool. I can use this new energy around me. In aikido especially it is important to be full of energy. It's contagious...I want to spend my good energy on more people that I love, rather than on one person only. I'm reminded of this inspiring zaadz blog. it is worth investing energy in the highest good rather than being with the pain of attachment to a particular one. A particular person will not react as desired but you can do without wishing for results.

In my world of surrounding love I want to remain humble and respectful to my loved ones' space and personal needs, whatever those may be, I want to respect them without holding anyone back on their path. I want to remain loyal, sharp and transparent in my intentions. I'm dreaming of a centreless network of friends where we are all connected, some more some less, with each other, without jealousies interfering. I'm hoping to pull people (by organic elimination and attraction) and build strong relationships with teachers and friends that have enough space in their heart (whose kokoro ga hiroi, in japanese) to allow a wider (or smaller) network to develop. In this network there will be no centre and no ego. A natural attraction process that may even re-convert some previously jealous-minded hearts in the course of time, who knows? - Is this humanly possible, considering everyone's own agendas? I imagine the relationships in this web will be shapeless, just pure enjoyment of whatever is happening. Relationships where nothing is mentally coerced just received when it is there, no puirsuit of success, just organic growth. Phew, is this possible???? Feels explosive at times. It's a life ambition.